SENDING OUT AN SOS

Recently
To me
These days seem like all I need is to get away
Like my life is a mess
And the fight to help myself just seems so helpless
Like all I can do is send out an SOS
And hope for something or someone to come and end my distress
Like I’m in stormy winds in a sinking ship
With the cold ocean beating against my chest like steel cord
With no life preserver to preserve my life if I should get tossed overboard
I’m lost in the sea of no hope and what’s more I can’t see the lord
I feel so forsaken and forlorn sometimes I wish I was never born
My heart hurts so much these days I think a piece is torn
Or was soaked in honey and then left for bees to swarm
But nevertheless unlike that Candyman I seek no revenge
I just sit away alone in my room and contemplate my end
Because throughout my life I have cried so many nights and considered
Suicide again and again
And sometimes in my mind my death means more than my life
Because I just ain’t got those kind of friends
I mean
It seems hopeless
Like mostly everybody just wants to take away from me
And when I ain’t got what they want
They just want to break away from me
Maybe when I’m gone they’ll just want me
But honestly
That I don’t see