Don't Exist

I remember when we were young
And I showed signs of a promising love
I could hear church bells ringing
But they never rang for us because
I could never learn to trust (or commit)
So you wrote that you would carry
All the love for the both of us
At the time I thought this would be enough
I’ll just wallow in some dying lust
I remember when I, when I was insane
When I thought people didn’t change
I thought we were making progress
Your body language contradicts
Your monologue of pretext so I’ll admit
I’m losing interest and my love was a pretense
I’m tired of these failing attempts to balance myself
Between what you want and the opinions of everyone else
I keep rewinding progress
I know I’m a fiasco
But it’s not your fault, we were young and impressionable
But the man that you love doesn’t love you at all
But he’s still a good man
I’m still a good man
…I guess
Well I’ll look at all the lonely people
They say it’s all my fault
That I’m alone because
I’m tenacious and I do not care
So I’ll just ignore the lonely people
To them I know I don’t, I don’t exist
I’m losing all my best friends
We were all hypocrites
I’m losing all my best friends and I don’t exist
I don’t exist (x3)