Come Clean

The image of you
The thought burns right through
A flaw in an otherwise perfect crime
It’s funny how
The things I care about
Are damaged
But the unimportant things are fine
14 Herbert Street
Two thousand and ten
I was eighteen
I couldn’t keep my fucking story straight
I pushed you all away
But the street lights on Mayne
They still flicker
Even though we’re never there to see
I always wanted to call
But I had nothing to say
And you seemed better off
Since you moved away
I can’t say I don’t miss the company
Of such a better example
Of me
I know I had you all concerned
But I’ve changed now
I’m better
And I got just what I deserved
Persistence
Respect is a process
Torn between
Another bullshit apology
Or blaming everything I said
On a broken self-esteem
Dodge the burden
Evade the blame
Or suck it up and just come clean
It’ll never be the same again
And all I have to thank is me
Is there anything I can say
To bring back the old days
I know I had you all concerned
But I’ve changed now
I’m better
And I got just what I deserved
Persistence
Respect is a process
I’ve been obsessing over bridges burned
Though it’s over it lingers
So tell the others when it works for you
I miss you
And life’s a little longer now