So Much For Everyone

As much as i’d like to go To places i’ve never known,
Scared shitless to leave home,
And i don’t want to go alone.
I miss the rewarding gaze
Of a friend from my younger days,
Didn’t mind 'bout my selfish ways,
As he died i was miles away.
I hope he remembers how,
As i do when i look back now,
Though he’d bark at the slightest sound,
Would not bite for he knew not how.
And sometimes it’s more than clear,
When morning comes early here,
And i know that the day is near,
Wasted days make for wasted years.
Now i’m vicious with appetite,
Sobering half a mind,
Dripping with stolen wine,
Awoken by something i dreamt.
Harboured by everything i have been witnessing.
Postcards and daydreaming
Get less embarrassing.
After the day is done,
I will be on the run —
So much for everyone, so much for everyone.
The showdown is endless here,
Under the burning sun.
As eyes roll toward me now,
I will drop my gun.