Gaia Alive

Blurry vision, shaking I
Never thought I’d be this girl
Looking in a mirror why
Do I do this to myself?
I don’t deserve, I don’t deserve
I don’t deserve, I don’t deserve
Anything
I don’t deserve, I don’t deserve
I don’t deserve, I don’t deserve
Anything
I know, I know, I know
All of this looks strange and silly
I know, I know, I know
I’m my own cyanide surely
Just help me forget my trembling, even for moments
Intertwining spines and fingers, tasting and showing
You know, you know, you know
I will be okay
Can’t go back and chang choices
Maybe forces hav their way
They tug my skin and close my throat
And won’t let go until I scream for bones
I don’t deserve, I don’t deserve
I don’t deserve, I don’t deserve
Anything
I don’t deserve, I don’t deserve
I don’t deserve, I don’t deserve
Anything
I know, I know, I know
All of this looks strange and silly
I know, I know, I know
I’m my own cyanide surely
Just help me forget my trembling, even for moments
Intertwining spines and fingers, tasting and showing
I know, I know, I know
I will be okay
Attracted to how you burn yourself
Ghosts have kept me from those fires
But it’s light and there’s just no one else
I know, I know, I know
All of this looks strange and silly
I know, I know, I know
I’m my own cyanide surely
Just help me forget my trembling, even for moments
Intertwining spines and fingers, tasting and showing
You know, you know, you know
I will be okay