When Did You Cross Your Finish Line

Which one is him?
I can’t control myself!
Keep my composure
But I think I could kill someone else!
It’s my revenge!
What’s said is said
I won’t resist!
Feel the pressure in my head
He might think I wanna talk
But I am on the edge!
He has to know!
The beast is out of the cage!
I wanna see him crying out
Begging on his knees
Will I regret it later?
Or shall I forgive?
My heart is getting cold
But deep inside of my soul
I’m okay, I’m still the same!
I put my life on hold
I lost my faith and hope
Concentrate on the things I hate
Daybreak’s revealing my mistakes!
My fate is playing its vile and cruel games
Betray! And willingly fade away!
Go pray! It’s my 50 shades of grey!
Someday I’ll figure it out in my head!
Some things you will never erase
You can’t just turn your back and pretend it had never happened!
A denial!
Open fire!
No forgiveness!
Ain’t no witness!
My heart is getting cold
But deep inside of my soul
I’m okay, I’m still the same!
I put my life on hold
I lost my faith and hope
Concentrate on the things I hate