Ruinous Calamity

Alone with the thoughts in my head
They’re buzzing like flies again
Swarming this corpse of a man
And that’s all I am
And all I’ve ever been
The how and the why and the when
It’s all I know
And knowing’s a curse in itself
Yeah, I just don’t know what to do
I can lie to myself
But I can’t lie to you
When all our dreams are dead
I’ll start living again
I’ll start telling the truth
I’d like to be sleeping instead
But this floor isn’t soft like a bed
It’s all I know
And knowing’s a means to an end
Yeah, I just don’t know what to do
I can lie to myself
But I can’t lie to you
When all our dreams are dead
I’ll start living again
I’ll start telling the truth
As hard as I try to pretend (as hard as I try to pretend)
This is all I am
And all that I will be again