Still Pretending

These are my staying awake nights
Keeping myself entertained nights
Making you out to be insane
With trying not to fight
I am alone in this restlessness
I am coping with my busy life
Not exposed to any true advice
With a slippery hand
In my mirror there is no hiding from this
In my mirror I am still pretending
That it is before my awakening
That it is before my awakening
So I am crying over nothing tonight
You have been keeping me awake tonight
Wish I could turn off your bright eyes
Without causing a flash of light
In my mirrow there is no denying this
In my mirror there is no hiding from this
I am truly terrified
And still
I am pretending it’s before my awakening
That it is before my awakening
Before my awakening