I Feel Everything

i am not sure i want this to take
what it’s taking
but that just seems to be the choice
i am making
mother this is all i ever wanted
now how do i get back to where there isn’t everything, only you
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i cannot hear
because i hear everything
i cannot see
because i see everything
i cannot feel
because i feel everything
it is not peace i find, it is not satisfaction
it’s not the life i always dreamed or imagined
it is not wisdom, it is not strength
it is not control
it is a promise meant to quell my every fear yet leave me cursed
ch
inst bridge
i’ve nothing left
no life or death
no will that’s free
i have no way now to explain
what’s come over me
i’m just a body overwhelmed
and lying still
a casualty of knowing what i want and wanting what i know