My Weakness

Destructive tendencies
Still beside deep inside
I’m too weak to survive
And so faint to feel
Do you know how I feel?
The heat inside, exploding silence
I feel I’m gonna smash or cry
Who will give me more power
More pleasure for my soul?
Is that fear or anger within me
To blow me up and disappear?
Why do I feel so cheated?
Not knowing where my guilt dwells
Why everything you trust
Must hurt you and then turn to dust?
Expected relapses
Overstrain all my mind
I’m too slack to fight
And much rare for sacrifice
Do you know how I feel?
The heat inside, exploding silence
I feel I’m gonna smash or cry