worse

I wanna know what it feels like
To be alone with myself in my own head
Glued to the phone I’m all alone
Can’t shake this feeling of intentional regret
I wanna know what it tastes like
To reach my goals and feel good about myself
A second chance, at circumstance
I need another way to pay attention
Everyday
I shouldn’t ever have to feel this way but
But everytime I try and see if something changes
I shouldn’t ever have to feel this way
Everytime I try
I wanna know what it feels like
Forgetting what you thought of me and who I am
I’m sick of what I used to be
I’m so damn tired and I’m paranoid again
I wanna know what it tastes like
Thought I’d feel better but each day it’s getting worse
Need a new crutch, I’m out of touch
Yeah I can barely hold a conversation
You’re laying there right next to me, staring at the back of my head