Even If

Doesn’t seem that selfish
No, not in the least
What’s so self-rightous
About this curiousity
This want for a meager exchange
So much time has passed but still it remains
This need for you
Is a reoccurring theme in my life
Don’t you think I’m lonely
Eager to complete this story
Confused and still haunted
With why
You’d start over
And ignore me
It takes time to realize
The other side of you
That’s controlling
Blind in hindsight
Of our lives
Even if you left me and my brother
Even if you left us and our mother
Want nothing more than to catch your eye
Would you be impressed with how far I’ve climbed
Without your assistance
With you nowhere in sight
Don’t you think I’m lonely
Eager to complete this story
Confused and still haunted
With why
You’d start over
And ignore us
It takes time to realize
The other side of you
That’s controlling
Blind in hindsight
Of our lives
Even if you left me and my brother
Even if you left us and our mother
She’s had her share
More than we’ll know
My brother won’t
He just won’t let go
They say you’re sick and there’s a name and a phrase
To apply and help explain
Still having trouble trying to separate
How you started a new family
Even after you left me and my brother
Even after you left us and our mother