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Lying in my bed
Feeling very sad
Thinking whether to die
Or to masturbate
Looking for a blade
Want to make an end
I would like to cut my veins
But I am too afraid
Watching MTV
Feeling like a creep
Many tons of tits and ass
And nothing is for me
Oh, how much I despise
All those sleezy, smiling guys
Always knowing what is «in»
And what to eat to be slim
Impossible it seems
That they are human beings
I wonder if they ever have
To shit or take a leak
The only thing I really need
Is something tough and masculine
Nice brave guys in uniforms
And comradeship in easy wars
The only thing I really need
To improve my self-esteem
Is an enemy, a rifle and something to fight for