Better Me

Lately I’ve been feelin' I’ve been puttin' on a show
Try to turn away but I can’t seem to let it go
Feelin' like the devil’s got his hands around my throat
'Cause I’m chokin', I’m chokin', I’m broken (oh, oh)
Wish that I could say I knew where this was gonna go
Right before the start of somethin' I couldn’t control
I feel like the devil’s got his hands around my throat
'Cause I’m chokin', (no) I’m chokin', I’m broken
See, I ain’t got it all together
People lookin' at me like I got the answer (but I don’t)
I’m walkin' through the city with my head up
But I’m still feelin' the pressure (still feeling the pressure)
And when I say that I’m okay I’m really not though (not though)
I try to cover up my pain, I gotta stop though (gotta stop though)
'Cause I don’t wanna lose everything I got, so
I’m gonna try to make it right (make it right though)
I’m gonna try to fix my life (fix my life)
Gonna fight to survive (to survive)
Ain’t gonna listen to the lies
I’m just gonna fight
And if I die, that’s okay ('kay)
Know where I’m going at the end of the day (day)
If only I could keep myself together for a change
This is not the party that I wanna show up late to
Gotta know it’s not a game against you (not a game)
Rather with you
Only if you choose to (yeah)
I ain’t one to point fingers 'cause I got my own issues
I’m tryna lay it out
Tryin' not to confuse you
I’m not who I wanna be
I’m not like I used to be
Who I used to be
Wish I could remember how I used to live
Lately I’ve been thinking 'bout the words I’ve said
Things I did
I can do better
Lately I’ve been feelin' I’ve been puttin' on a show
Try to turn away but I can’t seem to let it go
Feelin' like the devil’s got his hands around my throat
'Cause I’m chokin', and I’m chokin', I’m broken (and I’m broken)
Wish that I could say I knew where this was gonna go
Right before the start of somethin' I couldn’t control
I feel like the devil’s got his hands around my throat
'Cause I’m chokin', I’m chokin', I’m broken
I ain’t finished (I ain’t finished)
No, I’ve got some unfinished business
History ain’t short
But I’m tired of keeping secrets (keeping secrets)
Tired of walking 'round with people who don’t know the difference (know the
difference)
Tired of vibin' with the people who don’t know the business
But I ain’t tryna lose my soul I know it’s hard to keep (hard to keep)
Ain’t gon' let my observations get the best of me (best of me)
I wanna see a better me, that’s what I wanna see
I wanna see a better me, I ain’t got time to flee
That’s for the market
That ain’t gon' be a part of me (that ain’t a part)
I’m gon' stop it
The parts of me that are losin' sleep
'Cause I ain’t had it
Yeah I’ve been staying up for weeks
I know it’s bad, but I ain’t seen no one stopping me
I only see what I wanna see
It’s bad for me (bad for me)
I only go when they needed me (yeah)
Emergency (emergency)
I only want what I don’t need (need)
When will I see all I need is what I can’t see (what I can’t see)
It takes a week before I’m back doin' the same thing (nah nah nah)
You’d think I learned but I guess I can’t see clearly (clearly)
That’s why my vision is up
'Cause I ain’t givin' it up
I’m holdin' back because I know about the things that I’ve done
When will I trust in them
When will I love again
Hope it doesn’t take me
Losin' everything
To realize he’s enough again
Oh I wanna be in love with him
I wanna come back home again
'Cause lately I been feelin' I’ve been puttin' on a show
Try to turn away but I can’t seem to let it go (let it go)
Feelin' like the devil’s got his hands around my throat
'Cause I’m choking, I’m choking, and I’m broken
Wish that I could say I knew where this was gonna go (go)
Right before the start of something I couldn’t control
I feel like the devil’s got his hands around my throat
'Cause I’m chokin', I’m chokin', I’m broken (oh oh)
I wanna see a better me (oh)
Better me, oh