Idiot

I’ve been an idiot
I’ve been a fool
Now that it’s over
I’ve got nothing left to lose
Got into the habit
Of not getting it right
I tore myself half to death
Just to live up to the hype
You know I told her all my secrets
When I didn’t have no secrets to tell
See, I was bound and determined
To drive the nail into the coffin myself
If I am gonna carve my name into this shame
Like a tall old tree made of all the pain
It didn’t work, I didn’t care, I just wanted to be there for a while
You have been patint
You have been kind
Tried to make this lov we can’t get right
Like a dog in the window
Or a breath from your chest
You give and give and give until there’s nothing left
I got rid of all the memories that I never had the heart to erase
See I’ll write a song about you, but I’ll never say it to your face
If I am gonna carve my name into this shame
Like a tall old tree made of all the pain
It didn’t work, I didn’t care, I just wanted to be there for a while
I’m that ugly stain
You can’t get out
On your father’s name
Your mother’s blouse
If you stick around
Then you’ll see I don’t make mistakes
You’re part of me
And I know it’s not time
For you or I to try
And if I was the man who could count on his hands all the times that I saw but
I didn’t understand. I would hope that I’d see that I’d live through the three
and any trouble with those who would bargain with me
I’m a fake, I’m a fraud, and when I talk to God—now I hope that he hears cause
these days it appears that I can’t do it on my own or when I do it by myself.
Some days it gets better but most days I can’t say—
If I am gonna carve my name into this shame
Like a tall old tree made of all the pain
It didn’t work, I didn’t care, I just wanted to be there for a while
It didn’t work, I didn’t care, I just wanted to be there for a while
It didn’t work, I didn’t care, I just wanted to be there for a while