Fading to Grey

Dark, swirling smudges surround me
Like a pain caught around me
In a scream with no sound
My image, reflected and thinking;
Why am I sinking whilst standing on ground?
I turn a blind eye and a deaf ear to cope
'cause I’d rather be numb than act out of fear or hope
You brought me in, but pushed me out, make up your mind
You’re aching in pain
I’ll try and take it away
But you’re fading to grey
Don’t go
I cannot cope on my own
Your song and dance is deceptive
But you’re not so perceptive
I see through your disguise
'cause your smile and tone are concealing
What I can see that you’re feeling
When I look in your eyes
The train I trusted would take me home
But the tracks are rusted and I am on my own
You brought me in, but pushed me out, make up your mind
You’re aching in pain
I’ll try and take it away
But you’re fading to grey
Don’t go
I cannot cope on my own
I can’t quite
(It's raining,)
Conceive it
(It's pouring,)
How can I
(I can’t face,)
Believe it
(The morning,)
I can’t move
(I'm hoping,)
But wanna
(And praying,)
You’re crying
(God help me,)
Madonna
(You're staying,)
The heavens
(I'm screaming,)
Are calling
(You're trying,)
A dry throat
(Not speaking,)
I’m stalling
(No magic,)
I’m homeless
(I'm looking,)
And grasping
(No answer,)
For someone
(So someone tell me,)
I’m asking why? why? why? why? why? why? why?