Right Here

i’m willing but not able
to look into the hundred eyes
that judge across the table
their words like swords
my last demise
you tell me why I need it
you tell me why I want it
pressing hard against my skin
my lungs are chasing wind
this confidence
endlessly pushing me
I don’t need your company
I won’t give in
wait till I see the truth
don’t know what I got to lose
it’s all the same
put you on a pedestal
but you don’t know that it kills
so easy to blame
knowing that you had it good
you want it still
growing out of this sickness
I’m letting go of my righteous faults
so tell me what I’ve been missing out
right here on my own
I had you give all your loving
but all this time I had this hole
and I was standing so motionless
right there on my own
I want what
we had then
there’s no denial
but I never
and you never
heard these same sounds
and as they echo in my head
floating by a hundred miles
there’s so much I wanna say now
behind these simple words
telling you I’m here tonight
there’s much to find
waitin on it
growing out of this sickness
I’m letting go of my righteous faults
so tell me what I’ve been missing out
right here on my own
I had you give all your loving
but all this time I had this hole
and I was standing so motionless
right there on my own
where you are
ever be
chasing for
some company
where you are
ever be
chasing for someone
(chasing for some company)
you be, slowly, drifting
images of memories
what we lost is
now found
so keep it close in hideout
in this new beginning
we can let em know
you can never have it all
sleeping in this city
keepin to your own
darling you can let it go