Confused

So, I feel like loving is selfish
I’m done
Just tryna get by
And I want you now
And I don’t know why
Think of you when I cry
Sit at home and I die
All alone in my mind
Don’t wanna live this life
Yeah I’m selfish but I can’t help it (can't help it)
Yeah my hearts cold and you wanna melt it (you wanna melt it)
All alone now lookin' through the messages (through the messages)
Yeah I want you now and you know its evident (it's evident)
Yeah I’m selfish but I can’t help it (can't help it)
Yeah my hearts cold and you wanna melt it (you wanna melt it)
All alone now lookin' through the messages (through the messages)
Yeah I want you now and you know its evident
And you know it’s evident
And you know it’s evident
You know it’s evident
Insane I think I’m insane
I could use some help (could use some help)
These thoughts inside my brain are confusing as hell (confusing as hell)
Been through some shit (been through some shit)
And I don’t wanna bring you into it (and I don’t bring you into it)
But alone im helpless (im helpless)
So, I feel like loving is selfish
Insane I think I’m insane
I could use some help (could use some help)
These thoughts inside my brain are confusing as hell (are confusing as hell)
Been through some shit (been through some shit)
And I don’t wanna bring you into it (and I don’t wanna bring you into it)
But alone I’m helpless (I'm helpless)
So, I feel like loving is selfish