I'm Not Okay

I’m not okay
I’m not okay' okay'
Self love turns to hate
Every time I make mistakes
So much pressure that I break
I break' I break'
Always going through the day
Pretending I’m okay
Well, I’m not okay
I’m not okay (Not okay!)
I’ve been stressed been depressed all day (All day!)
Well It’s time to snap out of it
You got a smile to fix
You got so far man be proud of it
Always tryna to be perfect
You can’t be perfect
Gave your all so never are you worthless
At the plate; steady swinging but they curve it
Been tryna hit it off lik a 40 year old virgin
Ha… I just like to joke around
Try to keep my had up even though I’m feeling down
I know I could call for help, but I never make a sound
All this hurt I just carry it around
Told myself it’ll get better one day
Shoulder it; eventually it’ll go away
Gotta face the truth it won’t decay
Hurting myself this not the way
I think it’s finally time to say
I’m not okay
I’m not okay' okay'
Self love turns to hate
Every time I make mistakes
So much pressure that I break
I break' I break'
Always going through the day
Pretending I’m okay
Well, I’m not okay
We all got problems
You don’t wanna bother others to solve em
But look at all the chaos it brings
Look at all the pain you causing
Why does therapy sound like a drag?
Acting like you got life in the bag
Last time I checked
The last 8 nights you been sad
Don’t be afraid to take a different path
I know that life been crazy
Insane maybe
Dreams on ya mind like Brenda’s got a baby
Doing anything to shine. On the grind like skating
(Flipping flipping. Flip. Flipping)
Flipping off; 180
Told myself it’ll get better one day
Shoulder it; eventually it’ll go away
Gotta face the truth it won’t decay
Hurting myself this not the way
I think it’s finally time to say
I’m not okay
I’m not okay' okay'
Self love turns to hate
Every time I make mistakes
So much pressure that I break
I break' I break'
Always going through the day
Pretending I’m okay
Well, I’m not okay
Yea
I know it’s only the first step
But I’m finally learning to acknowledge that mentally
Physically, spiritually, I’m damaged
And I can’t expect to just push through it and recover after
I might not even make it to after
I gotta stop. Seek recovery now
Yea
I’m not okay