New Pain

Make you go insane
Yeah
Remember when I was down and I felt like I ain’t have no purpose
Then I came up, had to watch my homies 'cause they start lurkin'
My man, he got indicted, man, that shit made me nervious
It was his own homie that snitched, you never know who really workin'
Trappin' out in those counties where the phone don’t get no service
got locked up, it feel like he under the surface
'Cause he 18, I was away, and we don’t ever get to see him
Plus his baby mom just hit me 'bout his kids in my DM
Shit could be trecherous livin' in the trenches
Just to make a way, we run from cops and jump them fences
Trappin' day to day to make a play so we could eat
Just got a eviction notice gotta be out by next week
It’s enough to make you go insane
So many thoughts that I could lose my brain
And I done lost so many times
I feel like I can’t lose again
It’s enough to make you go insane
So many thoughts that I could lose my brain
And I done lost so many times
I feel like I can’t lose again
The life we chose
I know it’s a better way for me, but it’s like
I just can’t stop
I keep chasin' the wind, but I might just
Wake up in the pen, but it’s like
I’m never gon' stop, I’m never gon' get up
'Cause I don’t know no other way
But it’s like I just keep fightin' inside of me
I wanna do right
I just can’t let go of wrong
It’s like this all I know
You know, I been put in this position
'Cause, you know, fear and starvation
Growin' up in the ghetto, it’s just like…
I was down, bad, and I ain’t have no work in
Asked niggas to front me and they look at me and start smirkin'
, I’ll be back for certain
'Cause I was in
Niggas takin' vacations and I was workin'
I heard niggas hatin', but it ain’t workin'
Ball like I’m a Laker, sippin' that yellow and purple
My man just beat his case, yeah, we could celebrate like it was his birthday
Niggas wanna see me fall, I know they pray for it
I told them niggas they could wait for it
Back when I was makin' my M, niggas they was makin' more
Had to watch my own friends 'cause they the ones that was hatin' on me
That’s what it feels like
It’s enough to make you go insane
So many thoughts that I could lose my brain
And I done lost so many times
I feel like I can’t lose again
It’s enough to make you go insane
So many thoughts that I could lose my brain
And I done lost so many times
I feel like I can’t lose again
The life we chose