Like A Body

Spending nights
Squeezing into the trunk of your car
Like a body
But I’m not dead, just rotting
Shower curtains
Tend to give me the fright of my life
I check behind them
Almost every fucking night
I guess I hate you
Or maybe I just hate myself
I’m a child
But baby I’m so tired
Cut my hair with a knife
And now I look like shit
Does it get any different?
Or could this be it?
Don’t ask me how I’m doing
How am I supposed to know?
The doctors say I’m done growing
I think I should go
All I know, I know
Is that I know nothing at all
I’m the size of an ant
And you’re ten feet tall
Maybe this is just falling
But it sure felt like flying before
All I’m sure, that I’m sure of
Is that I’m certain I’m full of shit
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do
But I know this ain’t it
Maybe this is just dying
But it used to feel like being born
Just before
Spending hours
Just waiting for the time to pass
I feel stupid
Or maybe I’m just useless
What’s the point
If I fuck up just one more time
It couldn’t hurt
I’m already over the line
Don’t ask me how I’m doing
How am I supposed to know
The doctors say I’m done growing
I think I should go
All I know, I know
Is that I know nothing at all
I’m the size of an ant
And you’re ten feet tall
Maybe this is just falling
But it sure felt like flying before
All I’m sure, that I’m sure of
Is that I’m certain I’m full of shit
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do
But I know this ain’t it
Maybe this is just dying
But it used to feel like being born
I feel like a child
But baby I’m so tired
I feel like a child
But baby aren’t I wild?
I feel like a child
But baby I’m so tired
I feel like a child
And I’m so tired
I feel like a child
But baby I’m so tired
I feel like a child
But baby aren’t I wild?
I feel like a child
But baby I’m so tired
I feel like a child
And I’m so tired
All that I know, I know
Is that I know nothing at all
I’m the size of an ant
And you’re ten feet tall
Maybe this is just falling
But it sure felt like flying before
All I’m sure, that I’m sure of
Is that I’m certain I’m full of shit
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do
But I know this ain’t it
Maybe this is just dying
But it used to feel like being born