If I Were Honest

It’s as honest as you’ll find me
With a pen in my hand
I’m a liar and I’m drowning
Under the mess that I am in
I keep on wishing that the rain would stop falling on my face
So this is what it feels like
So this is how it hurts now
So this is how it’s going to be
You won’t even say a word
And I’ll keep lying to myself
It’s been so many years
So why on earth stop now?
And there was something hidden in your eyes
That made me feel like this time, this time
This time could be different
And I could finally change
I can’t keep trying this
I can’t keep lying
Like it’s all that I have left
But it’s all that I have left
You’re such a hero as you save yourself
And watch the world just burn to hell
With all you swore you loved
And everything that’s simple simply fades away
Even you can’t save me now
So save me now
It’s as honest as you’ll find me so don’t miss your chance
So this is what it feels like
So this is how it hurts now
So this is how you’re going to be
I won’t even say a word
I’ll just keep lying to myself
It’s been so many years
So why should we stop now?
Just admit that I kind of know you
Just admit that we might be better off
And for a change I will try to be honest
And admit that I never was
Don’t smile at me
For I know who you really are
In your hands a thousand keys
To a thousand broken hearts
You can ask me for an answer
You can simply pass me by
You can call me a liar but I swear to God I’m right
I swear I’m right. I swear I’m right