Why I Try

I can try if you let me
Without lies I am bleeding
Who am I without stories that aren’t mine?
What I did to achieve you
Gave me air, thought I had to
I’m untrue, it’s not pretty
The truth hurts
And you stayed on the ground
While I was high
Yes, you been here before
You closed the door
Now I don’t know what to say
I expect you to leave
I deserve to be unheard
But I want you to see
That you are the reason
Why I try
I don’t know what you’re thinking
But I know how you’re feeling
I have crushed and burned someone before
And now I’m afraid of the person
I’m pretending to be
But I’m more afraid to tell you
I’m less than you see
And I know when I let go right now
I’m gonna turn you against me
'Cause baby you stayed on the ground
While I was high
Yes, you been here before
You closed the door
Now I don’t know what to say
I expect you to leave
I deserve to be unheard
But I want you to see
That you are the reason
Why I try
'Cause it’s the look in your eyes
Filled with doubts and I’m scared
I am trying my very best to make it okay
But do you even care anymore?
Yes baby you stayed on the ground
While I was high
Yes, you been here before
You closed the door
Now I don’t know what to say
I expect you to leave
I deserve to be unheard
But I want you to see
That you are the reason
Why I try