Soulsick

I am only real at places I can not be My right hand rebels and chops off the left
(the) hairy ape walks into stage
he tries to stay erect
the one who never slept
in order to be perfect
the arrogance of their hands
the joy of the regret
soulsick — good at things I never did
soulsick but skindeep, tense, frantic but relieved
soulsick but skindeep, tense, frantic but believed
I am only real at places I can not be Dead liquid vigilant
Implanted into my sleep
The one who never slept
The one who stays erect
The one who is profound
The one I do reject
soulsick but skindeep, tense, frantic but relieved
soulsick but skindeep, tense, frantic but believed
soulsick — good at things I never did
I am only real at places I can not be Soulsick but skindeep
I’m not real, just believed in Soulsick but skindeep
Not real, just believe in