Daffodils

I’ve been buying myself flowers, crowning myself my own king
Hoping I can blindly make it better by pretending I didn’t destroy everything
Puttin' daffodils on fires and lavender on broken luck
I’m pretending I’m not drowning in my self-destruct
In my own fuck ups, in everything that I’ve done
I’m tryna hold myself up now, try hold myself up now
Don’t lean on me
Please, don’t lean on me
I’m not the one you need, I’m
Barely standing on my own
Legs holding me, I’ve outgrown
This weight I cannot hold, so don’t
Don’t lean on me
You’ve been begging me for pieces, things that I can’t cut and paste
Stick you back together while I’m holding all these tethers
And I’m pulling myself in place
Puttin' daffodils on fires and lavender on broken luck
I’ll keep pretendin' I’m not drowning in my self-destruct
Can’t find the words to let you know I’m hurting
So I’ll just let it all burn 'cause I can’t fix the things that I’m burning