Bittersweet

Dear mistreater
Come crawling back to you
My deceiver
I gain and loose, burn the fuel, it‘s nothing new
But what’s killing me
Is not the wasted time
It’s the agony of what’s drawing near
Turn over
First pill is bittersweet
Then live in clover
Turn over
Failed chance is destiny
So take it bittersweet
Dear illusion
Call myself realigned
Controlled emotions help me to gain
To ease the pain but hope is gone
Kill my solitude or just kill the pain
Die for my selfishness
I can’t control my fate