Cadillac

So I don’t stay in there
I don’t do things that make me feel
Like I’m on cloud 9, the thrill
I stick to things I understand
So I don’t cross the line and kill
Myself
I don’t wanna die yet
Cause I got lots of
I’m running round the block all alone
Got no place to call home
Nobody to phone, turn my heart right from stone
Why haven’t I grown
I’m still gone in my head
Should be left in bed, Slowly gone till I’m dead
But, nah I’m playin I got El and my crew elevating me
Take no Ls or lose, I’m not inadequate see
Don’t you think how it’s funny we could change to be
Someone different from ourselves, we were never meant to be
D-generation-X, the canvas I suplex
Hittin' paint then I roll, dodge to the bank
It connects when I shot, it was point blank
See you on the counter, like who this be? (Who that? Who that?)
I needa sneak a little peek, I think she noticed me (Oo, shit)
I can’t be acting all normal, like sanity (Insanity)
She’s like a prodigy
Realistically, I need a therapy (Therapy!)
Vanilla mixing raw cookies, out by the fire
You want the good shit, I got lifeline, she is my supplier (She is my supplier!)
Tongue’s out got you dribblin' like husky
Eating Krabs underwater at the Krusty
Haven’t been out, haven’t been back
Haven’t been soft, bombin' like I’m from Iraq
Then you see me, riding out with the Cadillac
Got me arrested like a cardiac
Livin' in a timeline where
I’m given looks, I’ve been given stares
Discriminated by my colour and my flairs
Many a time, hoping I just disappeared
Been talked down, cos of polygamy
Thought they were slaves
There was no monstrosity
If all of this were up to me
I’d rather stick to just one, please
Just because my daddy cry
Doesn’t mean my daddy weak
But for the truth I speak
All you see, don’t you dare believe
Works the same, for everything you hear
The truth is set so clear
Needs no signal
Only bonds to be teared
I got hatred for this shit
They my own but they ain’t no remedy
So I tell myself, «I wanna go big»
But I realised that I am my own enemy
Bringing up the past
Now issa broken record
All the words said like its precast
It don’t change like spots on a leopard
Been blazing it up daily
So that I can feel happy
I’m sorry that I ain’t faithful
It’s fucked up that I can’t stand by my own rules