Lost

I walked around with my shirt undone
in the summer evening sun
the beer was cold & it tasted good
laughter filled the neighbourhood
in summer it came easily
but this year winter got to me
I’m frozen still, white with frost
I once was found but now…
resolute on new year’s eve
habits that I swore I’d leave,
like rotten things on the back shelf
I’d dig them out to find myself
seems I might’ve dug too deep
discarded things I oughtta keep
an overhaul comes at a cost
‘cause I once was found but now…
maybe there’s some line I crossed,
I once was found but now…
after so long on the move,
home’s like skipping in the groove
the same 2 seconds of a song
repeating on & on & on
the air I drew into my lungs
used to make me feel so young
now I’m breathing in exhaust
I once was found, but now…
I once had won, but now…
I once understood, but now…
it’s better to have lost