HOOK:
I been fighting through the pain, I’m hurting
Henny to the brain, I’m swerving
I try, I know I’m not perfect
But can I get my last words in?
And if I die Lord take care of my family
And be more of a man than me
Man, I tried I know you will see
When you leave’s when you’ll OG
Start this off by saying my prayers
I know it ain’t fair, was only in my twentieth year
Don’t even know if this heaven as I sit on the stairs
Don’t be scared, my love will overcome all your fears
But I guess that right now this is all a mess for you
Thinking to yourself on my behalf ‘was this best for you?'
Reliving the past ask «what else was there left to do»
Stomach twisted wishing «could I had of rescued you?»
To tell the truth I’d been battling these inner demons
Feeling like heartbreak and eternity had made agreements
December 17's the last time I saw you leaving
Nobody believed me, I hadn’t really been complete since
Empty inside for like 9 more than 7 seasons
I beat the odds to get even but now my sorrow’s speaking
Yeah, I hoped you’d never see the day
Now that I’m gone this song is all that I got left to say
HOOK:
I been fighting through the pain, I’m hurting
Henny to the brain, I’m swerving
I try, I know I’m not perfect
But can I get my last words in?
And if I die Lord take care of my family
And be more of a man than me
Man, I tried I know you will see
When you leave’s when you’ll OG
My parents couldn’t make it work
How was I supposed to make it work?
Growing up I was confused, I was hurt
Could hate and blame the whole world, could never hate the perp
And as I got a little older it got worse
Birthdays and graduations went to whoever was first
Kinda crazy if my lady had a baby little daughter named her Amy
Would they even be present for Amy’s birth?
I guess there’s always good in the bad, a laugh when you’re sad
Circumstances led to siblings had
I’m glad, two sisters and brothers from 3 different mothers
I just hope that they remember how much they brother loved 'em
Never had the chance to grow up in a happy home
I was taught to find happiness on my own
As I acknowledge the hurt and the irony of life’s work
They could never be together, now they both see me in the hearse
HOOK:
I been fighting through the pain, I’m hurting
Henny to the brain, I’m swerving
I try, I know I’m not perfect
But can I get my last words in?
And if I die Lord take care of my family
And be more of a man than me
Man, I tried I know you will see
When you leave’s when you’ll OG
If I die tomorrow, it’s with a hole in my heart
I pray you focus on the positive and cherish my art
I understand as a man at times I failed
Gratitude to those who loved me, thanks to you I prevailed
See I believe that a broken heart isn’t split in two
Just dig a little deeper and you’ll see what I was seeing too
Blow after blow, after blow after blow
Each time I’d pick up the pieces but leave a few on the floor
The worst part of betrayal, it never comes from a stranger
Who was I to believe I could succeed and exchange her place in
My heart’s home, I held her heart in my own
When she walked out my life is when my whole heart was gone
I cannot go on, and so I leave you this song
That if the pain does consume me then my voice’ll live on
Have faith that I’m free and that my spirit be saved
‘Fore I am leaving this earth, this is what I will say