A Damnation's Stairway...

Always fate on events, pulled out of serenity
I do not want to wait for someone to help me
It does not depend on a person
But on the succession of facts
The consequences of casualities
That never go where I want
Distress, Illusion, Suffering Fate!
It is a steady and exhausting stairway
Towards an unclear destination
The start to where we came
Is getting easier and more familiar
I’m tired but I cannot giv up
Maybe I should stray but I cannot stop
Tonight I die so as to say that today I have livd
Truth creates disgust
Your brain does not want to accept
It is the despair that commands and depends on me
Just as it makes clear eveything that I’m afraid of
Today’s reality is different and complicated
Distress, Illusion, Suffering Fate!
But all of this makes no sense to me
But if I find all this incomprehensible
It is because this is shown to me