A Drowning Smile

How long
Has it been this way?
I can no longer tell
If it’s been ages or days
Colours start to blend
As every day feels exactly the same
Slowly sucked into
A black hole
Terrified
Yet apathetic all at once
All the time in the world and time stands still
With an ever growing void to fill
Can’t wait to be free
All the time in the world and time stands still
With an ever growing void to fill
Crippling fear of the aftermath
No pressure
Yet crushed by the lack of it