Waiting for the Bodies Down the River Floating

Inside the pain, I count how many breaths I have left
Inside the pain, I count how many heartbeats I have left
Inside the pain, I feel the lack of impulse in my flesh
Inside the pain, I have no strength to breathe in the air
Inside the pain, no more caressing spiked memories
I miss you
Or maybe I don’t
I know you would like me to
Insides crumbled with the vice of hopeless thoughts
Look at what you’ve done don’t turn away from my corpse
My existence smashed against the wall
See how fast it starts to decompose
Why me?
Insides crumbled with the vice of hopeless thoughts
Look at what you’ve done don’t turn away from my corpse
My existence smashed against the wall
Be transparent something I can easily ignore
When unrelenting voices
Try to exert control
Sit by the river
And watch the bodies flow
In prayer
Fold your hands
In prayer
Bowels burn
In prayer
All my faith
In prayer
Multiple collecting of self
Putting pieces together
Something finished
To be a human as expected
Uniform, a closed constellation
Fixed pattern of hemoglobin
Insides crumbled with the vice of hopeless thoughts
Look at what you’ve done don’t turn away from my corpse
My existence smashed against the wall
See how fast it starts to decompose