If Only

we could plan more than a few years at a time
if only we knew if it would be more worth our while
living within our imaginary lines
and always changing our minds
your feelings are not always the same as mine
so I guess i really shouldn’t be surprised
when something eventually turns out otherwise
but I wont know why
i don’t know,
I don’t know
what I deserve
and what I still owe
I’ll still need your approval
all I can offer
is all you can afford
not that it matters much anymore
sooner or later you’ll be on my side
but I know we have some self-imposed deadlines