Risk / Reward

I’m giving up
future obligations
but I set a deadline
for a few exceptions
all in all a win for everyone
only opposed because
of family tradition,
my humble beginnings,
social values and such
even though I could make
conscious efforts to change
it just wouldn’t be quite the same
and sure enough
my wisdom was flawed
oh silly thoughts
call it a complex
call it whatever you want
even though I could make
conscious efforts to change
for all intents and purposes
I don’t know if it’d be good enough
for the record
it’s not just a passing thought
we knew all along
it might take too long
yeah, I know, I know
some risks come with reward
and in looking forward
I don’t know where to start