Self-Implosion

Down on my knees in front of a twisted reflection
Floating on the edge of the abyss once again
Where are the arms that used to hold me?
Where?
Where was the point of no return?
The space begins to withdraw into itself
I want to close my eyes, never coming back again,
I don´t belong here
Cold sweat, sleepless every night, blood injected eyes, existence is what I
despise
Suffocation, burning from inside, bleakness
This gnawing inner state-of-being is all I am
Self-Implosion
Confined to this darkened cell
Staring at the void
Crushed by the weight of existence
Every night I fall with my exposed guts
Losing touch with this world
Despair begins once more
I cease to exist
If I could disappear
It’s a long way down to the vacuity
Where was the point of no return?