Dysphoria

The way she can’t live
It’s in her face
I want to promise
Let it go away this time
Let things feel real
So I do not feel
The weight of growing distant
Wish I grew up to speak the way you do
Feeling things I wished were so natural
Felt in the way that I am supposed to
I sit and smile, until I am your fool
Let go of patience
It feels okay to be loud
Let go of kindness
And shut it all out now
Let go of maybes
And what it means to know truth
Maybe I’ll find what I need confiding in you
Now you can never sleep
You can never quite see
Never quite be
The thing that I want me to be
Do you want to hurt so bad
That you can never forget again?
Do you want to live like that
'Till you can no longer feel it there?
Do you ever feel it won’t end?
That you can never ever hope again?
Well, it feels so hopeless now
It might as well just all come falling over
Words I say, they feel numb to me
Thoughts I think, they cannot make me move
I wonder what it’s like to even feel pain
It’s all over but the crying
Let go of patience
It feels okay to be loud
Let go of kindness
And shut it all out now
Let go of maybes
And what it means to know truth
Maybe I’ll find what I need confiding in you
Now you can never sleep
You can never quite see
Never quite be
The thing that I want me to be
Do you want to hurt so bad
That you can never forget again?
Do you want to live like that
'Till you can no longer feel it there?
Do you ever feel it won’t end?
That you can never ever hope again?
Well, it feels so hopeless now
It might as well just all come falling over
Do you want to hurt so bad?
Do you want to live like that?
Do you want to hurt so bad
That you can never forget again?
Do you want to live like that
'Till you can no longer feel it there?
Do you ever feel it won’t end?
That you can never ever hope again?
Well, it feels so hopeless now
It might as well just all come falling over