Pretend

I’ve been from town to town
So many I’ve lost count
Made so many friends about
But so few are still around
I’m just a loner
Don’t need that many friends
I’m not like your others
Ain’t got much in compare
I don’t know where I fit in
But I just make do
Cause it’s easier to pretend
When you’re feeling down and out
And you don’t really feel it
Pretend
When you don’t like the people who surround you
You gotta pretend
You’re not feeling like yourself
Then you gotta pretend
You gotta pretend
Up and down the east coast, never found home
Starting over every year and it starts to get old
Skipped my homecoming, skipped my prom and all the dances
Never paid attention to them girls that made advances
Focused on this music thank God it finally got me
All I ever needed was my horn and my family
I’m just a loner
Don’t need that many friends
I’m not like your others
Ain’t got much in compare
I don’t know where I fit in
But I just make do
Cause it’s easier to pretend
You gotta pretend pretend pretend
You gotta pretend pretend pretend
Yeah
Yeah
Shapeshifter
Cold-switching
Just to carry conversation on cold shoulders
Causes my cordial climate to attempt at room temp small talk over two brews
But
I’m tipsy from disinterest
Listening just enough to uh-huh and head nod
Knowing I’m too pissed to drive this stick shift dialogue any longer
Truthfully
Truthfully I’m a loner
Seriously
Stricken with only child syndrome
Smiling for pictures with people who don’t purchase product
But
I’d be the butthole if I fast-forward past pseudo-fans who plan to tag me on
Instagram like
Like we sharing a story
So I pause for the cause far too often
Flaunting several silhouettes of self for fresh perspective
Elected
A semi-social anti-approachable people person posing on the runway of
relationships
Sunken
In my postal dysfunction
Finding emo Nemos in a sea of sorrows seeking to borrow empathy
But I’m empty more often than not
Pretending
Pretending like I know your voice
Like I know your voice whenever you call
Whenever
Whenever you call