Numb

Sometimes I feel like I wanna go back
To a time before my mind turned black
(Verse 1: Golden BSP)
My mind is numb, could it be these drugs?
I just need a buzz cos lately I don’t got no feeling
Only time that I feel is when I’m drunk or when I’m bleeding blood
I’m speaking up and nobody heals me
They give me hugs
And I don’t need it
Cos it’s evil homie
I don’t feel the love
With all these demons on my back it’s hard for me to even work
I lay in bed, just waitin' for the day to end
I made a massive sin and since then we’ve been the greatest friends
I play my cards and it’s hard with a broken heart
There’s open scars all over it like animals tore it apart
I had the master plan
And then it crashed now I’m sittin' in this aftermath
I just wanna have you back
Tears up on my face
Runnin' down my cheeks
Screamin' on my hands and knees
I been feelin' weak
I wanna talk to you, but you won’t answer me
I thought we were a family
It’s cancerous
The patterns of this anarchy
(Chorus: Chloe Moriondo)
Sometimes I feel like I wanna go back
To a time before my mind turned black
(Verse 2: Blind Fury)
My bodies numb
My minds becoming kinda dumb from all the alcohol and drugs that I have done
I tried to find a woman I could call my wife or somethin'
All I got was fightin', fussin', gripin', cussin'
I can’t do shit
Right for nothin'
So I quit tryin'
Every day feels like I’m dyin'
Like my brain is fuckin' fryin'
And there ain’t no sense in hidin' this pain that I’m in
So I break down the eighth and put it inside my grinder and blaze a diamond
Lately I’ve been finding peace in solitude
Instead of following bitches that don’t ever follow through
This rap game will swallow you (whole)
Bring a bottle through cos I got a few songs to do
That I probably won’t finish cos I wanna be alone in my feelin’s
I’m disappearin'
Inside the madness
Every day it’s tragic
I just tried to hit the mic and bring some magic
If I can’t y’all can have it
I just go back to watchin' illegal cable and feedin' all my habits
(Outro: Chloe Moriondo)
Sometimes I feel like I wanna go back
To a time before my mind turned black