Transparent

I try to learn from the mistakes
I try to take them and make a change
But I still say sorry way too much
I still flinch at every little touch
And I pray and hope you won’t get angry
When I’m more like someone else than me
Can I be transparent with you now?
I’m so caught up in my own affairs
Trying so hard not to be scared (maybe honesty is the only way out)
Can it save my life if I set this right?
I don’t even know how
Can you show me how?
I try to see in black in white but I still see shadows in the light
And you kiss the scars that wear my skin but I still won’t let you in
And I’ve heard more goodbyes than the walls of hospitals (And I surmise I’m
more broken than I know)
I’ll try to change but I can’t do it if your foot is out the door
Just promise me that I can be
Transparent with you now
I’m so caught up in my own affairs
Trying so hard not to be scared (maybe honesty is the only way out)
Can it save my life if I set this right?
How painful it is to open up
(I want to be, I want to be transparent)
How painful it is to love
I want to be by your side but will it ever be enough
I’ll carry your burdens if you carry mine
Please don’t leave my side
Can I be transparent with you now?
I’m so caught up in my own affairs
Trying so hard not to be scared (maybe honesty is the only way out)
Can it save my life if I set this right?