Upstairs

I dissociate the memory
Torn apart and depressive
Apathy
Loss of time
My whole being’s a nightmare
I am scared
Who am I?
Knight errant
In armour
Alter ego
My wall
In a moment of shelter
I stumble and fall
I dissociate the memory
Temporary mental escape
From pain
Temporary mental escape
From fear
I’m losing touch
I dissociate the memory
I am going straight upstairs
To a room in my head
I am going straight upstairs
I just want to forget