Fade

The emptiness I harboured in the questions that I asked was almost palpable,
it tasted like the soft skin on your back
And when I said «Where did you go?» what I meant was «Since you left,
I have haven’t had the chance to hate you nearly half as much as I’ve hated
myself»
We were in love, at least that’s what I came to call it, I was never really
quite sure if it was; because in growing up the hardest lesson learned is just
because you love someone, it doesn’t mean they love you in return
I always thought you’d fade when I buried you and me, but on our grave a bed of
flowers bloomed; and now each day you grow more beautiful as I’m left to decay
I guess it’s true that some things never change
It’s been quite a long time now but I’m still so weak
I found a bliss in my ignorance until ignorance found hell in me
When I said «Where did you go?» what I meant was «Since you left I haven’t had
the chance to hate you half as much as I loved you then»
It’s been a long time now, but I still spend my nights laying awake
The kind of tired that sleep wouldn’t shake, the kind of empty that fills the
entire space in my chest cavity where I tried to keep you safe; but you escaped
It’s been quite a long time now but I’m still so weak
I found a bliss in my ignorance until ignorance found hell in me
When I said «Where did you go?» what I meant was «Since you left I haven’t had
the chance to hate you half as much as I loved you then»