Easier

I nearly tricked myself
Into thinking you were my baby
The pain you caused was purely reactionary
(Please baby)
Green tea, give me a reason
I had a choice, but I let you make it. I’m sorry
He’s me, so why did you let it amuse you?
But I know that it’s been so much harder on you
And it won’t get easier
I feel like my life’s been dissected in two
Still it don’t get easier
I just ran my car into the water
It’s freezing
I felt my systems go
We’re getting closer
Don’t tease me
This is the first time that I’ve seen you fall
The best version of me could never have seen this coming
I never fully understood your
Presence of mind but I’ll just let it slide
But I know that it’s been so much harder on you
And it won’t get easier
I feel like my life’s been dissected in two
Still it don’t get easier
If this is the last thing that I ever do
Then it won’t get easier
Still I know that it’s been so much harder on you