Love Myself

Why do I do this, every single time?
Already knew this, that I was out my mind
And the way that I view this, you’d think I was blind
Cause i just say screw this, dammit I’ll be fine
And I make an exception, and I pay the cost
Same direction, I still feel lost
The intersection, that I need to cross
Need to do some reflection, on pain I’ve caused
A whole lot of baggage, but really I don’t claim it
Thoughts running wild, I wish that I could tame it
Emotion’s rapid fire, I’m wishing I could aim it
And you say you’re doing better, I’m wishing I could same it
Cause I gotta get on track like a G.I., but my burdens always follow me like a
P.I
Looking at my ex, and you hoping you see why
But honestly I’ve been like this, since knee-high
Wake up and I start running, running to lose the past
But the, the thing about it, is it moves way too fast
And I don’t, don’t wanna leave you, I don’t want no one else
But if, but if I love you, first I should love myself
Why do you love me? I need to know
Inside it gets ugly, but I wanna grow
The second you hug me, I let go
Guess I got lucky, cause I don’t show
All the emotions, that I feel
Like I’m stuck in ocean, but I just deal
A sip of the potion, and life gets real
I’ve been praying and hoping, that I can heal
I don’t want to ever let you down, like that Nate guy
Wish I was type of person, that could take my
Feelings and just get them off my chest like a weight, why?
Do I always wait until the second I break, try
Wait like 30 days, that’s the point of no return
Usher in a new way, or let it burn
Ashes to ashes, someone get a urn
This is my battle, its not your concern
Wake up and I start running, running to lose the past
But the, the thing about it, is it moves way too fast
And I don’t, don’t wanna leave you, I don’t want no one else
But if, but if I love you, first I should love myself