Past, Present, Future

I meditated at home alone in an introspective zone
when my conscious mind takes on a deep reflective tone
As I layed afraid and replayed mistakes that i’ve made
depression covered me with his dark shade and cut like a blade
Should i seek advice from somebody that knows me the most?
Just as i asked a familiar figure slowly approached
I dont believe in paranormal beings or old seeing ghosts
but everything he told me and everything he showed me was close
I didn’t understand his motives or his purpose with me
My assessment was he could be 22 or 23
As my visual started burgin in and emergin I see
that this person indeed was just a younger version of me
He said he had words that were of the most urgent degree
Apologized for things that he had caused to occur mentally
decisons that he had made led to my discouragement G
Said at the time he couldnt see what all the turbulence be
Said history never produced a more deserving MC
That had received less and had packed a greater burden than me
«If I could merge ya knowledge now with ya fire from 93'
Just imagine how dangerous and disturbin it might be»
He showed me bad moments in my life that could’ve been nice
At times I wouldve won but I went left when I shouldve went right
well once you done it, well it’s over that’s a permanent rule
problems I couldve missed, had I made an alternative move
He reminded me well that I sat on a throne with a veil
now im lonely as hell, broken down and only a shell
of my former self, and that’s something I hated to say
just when I asked if I could make it right he faded away
three levels of my existence will clash
when my present meets my future in my past
how long will my rationale last
when my present meets my future in my past
man, what just happened to me
I must’ve blacked out or somethin man
I feel like, I feel like im in another dimension man
what’s really goin on
the psychological effects of pain i failed to withstand
to recover from it the average man seldomly can
someone tell me the plan, I looked and saw an elderly man
and he began to place me under a deep spell with his hand
I couldn’t believe that was to try to deceive me and lie
he was feeble and shy, and much older than the previous guy
I relaxed like I was high, relief I was breathin inside
he said that he would speak and that I would have no need to reply
he told me the things that I was yearnin in my past was a tree of learnin
said my future wasnt planned and that nothin was predetermined
said dont focus on rejection and personal imperfections
showed me sections of my life I should take in different directions
I couldnt see his face at all only a silhouette flamin
said there would be no deal in explainin, until I became him
what you see in front of you is the same form I remain in
it’s up to you to add to the frame of what you’ll be gainin
if you devote your inthereal hope and spiritual growth
look in the mirror close and apply not just here what i spoke
dont think current obstacles last, there’s no impossible task
you could profit with cash, the future has optional paths
I can’t reveal every dimension, Im just showin you some
I warn you now about the pitfalls so you’ll know when they come
first start your divorce, weak hearted thoughts of remorse
I can’t divulge too much there’s a chance you’ll alter the course
This warning is, right now you got throwns in your crown
But ima end it just born to astound
I see you speculating blatantly, no need to mistake me
yeah im you 20 years from now, but what will you make me
three levels of my existence will clash
when my present meets my future in my past
how long will my rationale last
when my present meets my future in my past
three levels of my existence will clash
when my present meets my future in my past
how long will my rationale last
when my present meets my future in my past