Silver Grenade

There’s someone that you once loved
I’m sorry I can’t be
You hold a ghost of me
My thoughts they tend to travel
To where I lost my soul
And my darkest days repeat
I’ve tried to find the answer
To resurrect my heart
To go back to the start
Sometimes the human starts to wake up
And I see the wreck I am
When you’re still a work of art
And you know
That I want you
Even though I push you further away
But my scars
Push my fears through
And I hold you like a silver grenade
Will you set yourself free
When the cold regret is all that I can see
Will you show me to bleed
How to recapture the essence that is me
I promise I’ve tried
But guilt and fear cloud my vision
Every decision
Now I know it’s my fault
But if you hold me closer
The pain feels over
For now
And you know
That I want you
Even though I push you further away
But my scars
Push my fears through
And I hold you like a silver grenade