Stalemate

I’ve sought so hard to attain this gain
Now watch me give this ground away
What can I do but admit I’m in over my head?
Colors fade from blue to dark red
Backed into a corner by my choices
And I’m hearing those same dark voices
At the mercy of my desires helpless, trivial
I’m left with no defenses
Stimulus, response, repeated failures
I’m sick, this sickness fills my senses
But despite my apparent loss I see release
This stalemate, my peace
Your wilderness is
Stalemate
You can’t move against me
Stalemate
The walls built around me
Stalemate
You can’t move against me
Stalemate
The walls built around me
Stalemate
You can’t move against me
Stalemate
The walls built around me
And as this theme continues to follow close behind
I see so clearly
If I would only let go of my tendencies
Then I’d know what it is to be free
I can’t win when I indulge this fantasy
Reduced as a pawn led to misery
A little detour won’t hurt
Let me change you slowly
A moment’s pleasure, but you’ll owe me
All encompassing defeat awaits the day
I choose to plunge and embrace this nightmare
But the night has an end and I see you
And you see me as the dawn of the one
Who’s adopted my ailment, my sickness
My stalemate reveals my blindness to my own condition
Your wilderness is
Stalemate
You can’t move against me
Stalemate
The walls built around me
Stalemate
You can’t move against me
Stalemate
The walls built around me
Stalemate
You can’t move against me
Stalemate
The walls built around me
I’ll still run away from
Six seconds of defeat
Six years of agony
I’ll still stand at odds with
Six seconds of defeat
Six years of agony
I’ll still run away from
Six seconds of defeat
Six years of agony
I’ll still stand at odds with
Six seconds of defeat
Six years of agony
I’m senseless, erode my senses
To fill my day with indulgence
Which leads to my undoing
I’ll never look back
I’ll never taste it again
I’ll never stop
You can’t stop me