Windscreen

Fifty degrees so I’m staying home today
could be much worse but I’m staying anyway
so why not write it down?
like photographing sound
I don’t know why I should feel this way on your birthday
but I’ll keep holding onto it until it fades away
I’m tired of dreaming of you
I wish that I could love her like I love you
goodbye I have to go and you’ll be the last to know
the only lonely hope I had is gone
Down on my knees too many times over you
deprived of sleep all those nights you never knew
but why should I feel bad?
perpetually sad
and when I take a second to reflect on how I feel
just because I’m crazy doens’t mean that its not real
these are the memories that never find a home
begging for significance like answering your phone
these are the moments that never matter anyway
I’m better off sleeping today