Fed To The Lions

I shade myself into the backlight of a room
My shadow apes my movements. The needle and the spoon
Now I can’t sleep without going numb, so many nightmares forming
Left alone, with no force for resistance
Don’t you dare tell anyone
Raped, abused, and shaken
Dark-minded maturation
Closed fist domination
(I'm still alive)
Cold vengeance, just for fun
Sickle to brains the sum
Gut string violins, dark movement begins
Closing haunted hymns
I’ll stab your eyes I’ll tear you apart
Left in a unmarked burial mound
Quartered and bound to the corpse of a pig
You’ll be together underground
The scenes replay, haunting me again
The killer and the wound, bound in an endless dance
So tell me how the f*ck am I supposed to move on?
Please tell me how to forgive those who took my youth away
I prayed to a God that never was
My screams fell on deaf ears
I’m alone with my time in hell
If I can’t die then please let me sleep
Sad little man, born of sin
Blood dripping from your blade
Ask your God why you’re alive
You only wanted to be saved
No salvation for the rapist priest, so many lies, so many truths to bend