In My Failings

Silence, help me see this upheaval. In my troubles of
Dented vision. Distorted grace — I am the fated. Yielding
In between machines of hatred. For what loyalty do I live
This agony. You keep preserving me to save your vanity
Murmurs gather, ripe with obsession. Damn you, father
— when do I leave. The scars are numberless, the blight
Unending. My will betraying (will you betray me now)
I hold unto the gallows, staring. Writhing in my failings
(here in my failings). I am given more than I can abide. Yet
I commit my guilt in receiving. My guilt in believing. For
What loyalty do I live this agony. You keep preserving me to
Save your vanity