A Funny Thing Happened to Me Today

A funny thing happened to me today
While I was standing waiting for a bus to come
I started thinking about all the things that I’ve never done
All I do anymore is look at my phone
To make it better
My mind suggests a walk home
Googled something within a matter of avenues
And I cursed the day I was ever born
But that’s just me
I make it hard on myself
Unnecessarily, or so it seems
Could it be
That I may thrive
On catastrophizing
Everything that happens in my life?
A funny thing happened to me today
While I was idling sideways in my living room
I noticed every imperfection on the wall
Every particle of dust
And I felt the bigger picture
I thought ‘How do I fix it?'
How did I not realize just how bad the problem’s got
This would all be fine
Had I been a bit stricter
Conditions correspond directly with the way I fought
But that’s just me
I find the worst in myself
Commit to it
Yeah, I get into it
Could it be
That I may thrive
On catastrophizing
Everything that happens in my life
It doesn’t matter who disagrees
I’m fucking up all the time and that’s not wrong
I’ve learned to wrangle
Never to strangle
All of the forces that aim to do me harm
It’s all a part of me
It’s instability
I can’t kill it but that doesn’t mean I’ve never tried
It always comes back
It’ll always come back
Why not invite it and let it stare back?
It’ll always stare back
Just let it take me
It’ll just take over anyway
It’ll just take over anyway
A funny thing happened to me today
Just like everyday